EYVAH<\/p>\n
1.
\n\tKasaban\u0131n en sevilen ayakkab\u0131c\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131 babam. Y\u0131llarca Ni\u011fde\u2019nin Bor kazas\u0131nda H\u00fck\u00fcmet Meydan\u0131\u2019ndaki d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131nda, Moda Kundura levhas\u0131 alt\u0131nda, ayakkab\u0131 yapm\u0131\u015f, tamir etmi\u015fti. Banka m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn kar\u0131s\u0131, o g\u00fczeller g\u00fczeli Hicran Han\u0131m, babam Nurettin Usta\u2019dan ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n iskarpinlerini giyemezdi. Sayg\u0131n bir zanaatk\u00e2rd\u0131 babam memleketinde.
\n\tAblam \u00fcniversite okuyaca\u011f\u0131m diye tutturunca, Ankara\u2019ya ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131k. Babam da, bir s\u00fcre, Demirlibah\u00e7e\u2019deki d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131nda s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fc ayakkab\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ama art\u0131k aranan bir usta olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, sonunda ustaba\u015f\u0131 olarak Dikimevi\u2019nde asker postallar\u0131 yapmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 makine ba\u015f\u0131nda.
\n\tY\u0131llarca saya ustas\u0131 olarak \u00f6m\u00fcr t\u00fcketti. B\u00fct\u00fcn ya\u015fam\u0131 i\u015fyeri, evi ve kahvehane aras\u0131nda ge\u00e7ti gitti. \u015eimdi yetmi\u015f be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nda. Bir sohbet s\u0131ras\u0131nda, askerli\u011fini \u0130skenderun\u2019da yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bir g\u00fcn asker arkada\u015flar\u0131yla birlikte bir deniz sefas\u0131 yapmak \u00fczere aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kay\u0131\u011fa att\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda, kay\u0131\u011f\u0131n yalpalamas\u0131 \u00fczerine, \u201cGit anam, ben bu merete binmem, bunun alt\u0131 c\u0131v\u0131k,\u201d diyerek denizi ya\u015fam\u0131ndan sildi\u011fini, deniz \u00fcst\u00fcnde giden hi\u00e7bir araca binmedi\u011fini \u00f6\u011frendim, hayret ettim.
\n\t\u0130stanbul\u2019da bir ev almama \u00e7ok sevinmi\u015fti babam. Denizi hi\u00e7 ya\u015famam\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131na \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmden, ge\u00e7enlerde onu zorla da olsa \u0130stanbul\u2019a g\u00f6t\u00fcrmeyi ba\u015fard\u0131m.
\n\tYal\u0131k\u00f6y\u2019deki Dalyan Kafe\u2019de yeni demlenmi\u015f bir \u00e7ay i\u00e7tikten sonra babam\u0131 Bo\u011faz7\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na, Yenik\u00f6y\u2019deki Emek Kafe\u2019ye kahvalt\u0131ya g\u00f6t\u00fcrmeye kararl\u0131y\u0131m. Haberi yok.
\n\t\u00c7aylar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bitirdikten sonra, on on be\u015f dakikal\u0131k mesafede, g\u00fczel mi g\u00fczel yal\u0131lar aras\u0131nda kahvalt\u0131 yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 s\u00f6yledim ona. Kabul etti. Beykoz iskelesine gelene de\u011fin bana bir \u015fey sormad\u0131. \u0130skelede, \u201cYenik\u00f6y, Yenik\u00f6y!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131ran \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rtkan\u0131 duyup da dalgalar\u0131n sallad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yolcu motoru i\u00e7inde motorun dolup hareket etmesini bekleyen yolcular\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce ku\u015fkuland\u0131:
\n\t\u201cNereye gidiyoruz?\u201d diye sordu.
\n\t\u201cKar\u015f\u0131 yakaya babac\u0131\u011f\u0131m, Yenik\u00f6y\u2019e,\u201d dedim.
\n\t\u201cNas\u0131l gidece\u011fiz?\u201d dedi deh\u015fet i\u00e7inde.
\n\t\u201c\u015eu yolcu motoruna binece\u011fiz babac\u0131\u011f\u0131m, en k\u0131sa yol bu.\u201d
\n\tBabam kolumu s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 kavrad\u0131.
\n\t\u201cKay\u0131\u011fa m\u0131 binece\u011fiz yani?\u201d diye k\u00fckredi.
\n\t\u201cEvet, \u00f6yle de denebilir,\u201d diye geveledim s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri a\u011fz\u0131mda. Birdenbire g\u00fcrledi: \u201c\u00d6l\u00fcr\u00fcm de binmem!\u201d
\n\tBundan sonras\u0131 babam\u0131n inad\u0131yla sava\u015fmakla ge\u00e7en ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131n en zor anlar\u0131yd\u0131. Ona denizi tatt\u0131rmakt\u0131 en b\u00fcy\u00fck amac\u0131m. \u0130nad\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131rmak olanaks\u0131zd\u0131. \u00c7evredeki, motordaki herkes \u201cAmca, korkacak bir \u015fey yok, bak bizimki can de\u011fil mi?\u201d gibisinden y\u00fcreklendirici s\u00f6zlerle bana yard\u0131m ediyor, bu devirde denize bu denli yabanc\u0131 birinin olabilece\u011fine ak\u0131l erdirememekle birlikte, ona b\u00f6yle bir co\u015fkuyu ya\u015fatmak isteyi\u015fime ortak olmak i\u00e7in de can at\u0131yordu. Babama denizi tatt\u0131rmak herkesin ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck utkusu olacakm\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Arkas\u0131ndan ite kaka bindirdik motora sonunda.
\n\tUzun s\u00fcre ayakkab\u0131lara bakt\u0131. Denizin ortas\u0131nda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p da Yal\u0131k\u00f6y\u2019\u00fcn ve t\u00fcm Beykoz semtinin bir ada gibi uzakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Donakalm\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Korkudan tir tir titrerken a\u011fz\u0131ndan tek bir s\u00f6zc\u00fck d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc:
\n\t\u201cEyvah!\u201d
\n\t\u201cNeden baba?\u201d
\n\t\u201cBunca zaman ben hi\u00e7 ya\u015famam\u0131\u015f\u0131m o\u011flum. Hayat\u0131 hep hayal i\u00e7inde ak\u0131p gidi\u015fine b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f\u0131m.\u201d
\n\t\u201cSevdin, de\u011fil mi?\u201d
\n\t\u201cHem de nas\u0131l!\u201d Ah bir de, aya\u011f\u0131nda onun i\u00e7in yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m iskarpinlerle yan\u0131mda olacakt\u0131 ki!…\u201d
\n\tAnnemi kastediyor olmal\u0131yd\u0131.
\n\t\u201cKim baba?\u201d
\n\t\u201cBankac\u0131n\u0131n kar\u0131s\u0131 Hicran. Eyvah ki ne eyvah!\u201d<\/p>\n
2.<\/p>\n
\tD\u00fcn gece telefon etti babam. F\u0131r\u0131ndan ekmek alm\u0131\u015f, bir gazeteye sarm\u0131\u015flar ekme\u011fi, \u00f6yk\u00fclerimin yay\u0131nland\u0131\u011f\u0131 gazetenin eski bir say\u0131s\u0131na. Rastlant\u0131 bu ya, \u201cEyvah\u201d ba\u015fl\u0131kl\u0131 \u00f6yk\u00fcm\u00fcn oldu\u011fu say\u0131 de\u011fil miymi\u015f? Bakm\u0131\u015f o\u011flunun ad\u0131, kendisinin de \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131yla foto\u011fraf\u0131 var. \u00dc\u015fenmemi\u015f, okumu\u015f \u00f6yk\u00fcy\u00fc.
\n-Gastelere hikayeler yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyorudum. Niye s\u00f6ylemen? O foturaf\u0131 nirde buldun? Yan\u0131mdaki ilk \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131md\u0131. Daha sona b\u00fct\u00fcn ailesiyle billikte bi gazada \u00f6ld\u00fc. Resmi g\u00f6r\u00fcv\u00fcr\u00fcnc\u00fc a\u011fl\u0131yas\u0131m geldi. Nirden buldun o eski foturaf\u0131?
\n-Buldum i\u015fte. Buldum ve saklad\u0131m.
\n-\u015eu senin eskiye merak\u0131n, de mi? Eskici seni. Pek g\u00fczel olmu\u015f, eline sa\u011fl\u0131k. Hikayen de iyi ho\u015f da, bir s\u00fcr\u00fc yan\u0131\u015f var. \u0130stanbul\u2019da ev almana sevindim sevinmesine de \u201cge\u00e7enlerde onu zorla da olsa \u0130stanbul\u2019a g\u00f6t\u00fcrmeyi ba\u015fard\u0131m,\u201d diyon. Sen beni ne zaman davet ettin ki \u0130stanbul\u2019daki evine?
\n-Babac\u0131\u011f\u0131m, o bir \u00f6yk\u00fc. Hayal \u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc. Ger\u00e7ek ya\u015famdan yola \u00e7\u0131karak yazd\u0131m ama anlayaca\u011f\u0131n, baz\u0131 yerleri d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda uydurma. \u00d6yk\u00fc bu, ger\u00e7e\u011fin t\u0131pat\u0131p ayn\u0131s\u0131 olmak zorunda de\u011fil.
\n-Ben oras\u0131n\u0131 bilmem. \u00d6yk\u00fcym\u00fc\u015f m\u00f6yk\u00fcym\u00fc\u015f. Gay\u0131\u011fa binmekten gorktu\u011fumu, \u201cGit anam, ben bu merete binmem, bunun alt\u0131 c\u0131v\u0131k,\u201d didi\u011fimi nas\u0131l da unutmam\u0131\u015fs\u0131n. Ama onu didi\u011fim yir, \u0130sgenderun deldi. Ben asgelli\u011fimi \u0130sgenderun\u2019da deel, Malatya\u2019da yapt\u0131m. O laf\u0131 da Mersin Da\u015fucu\u2019na gitti\u011fimizde arkada\u015flar\u0131nan, o zaman didiydim.
\n-Dedim ya babac\u0131\u011f\u0131m, sadece bir \u00f6yk\u00fc bu. Ger\u00e7e\u011fin ayn\u0131s\u0131 de\u011fil. \u00d6yk\u00fc gere\u011fi uydurdum bir\u00e7ok \u015feyi.
\n-Ben bilmem \u00f6yk\u00fc ney, ger\u00e7e\u011fin ayn\u0131s\u0131 ney. Ha, bi de, bankac\u0131n\u0131n gar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 sevgili duttu\u011fumu s\u00f6yl\u00fcyon hik\u00e2yenin sonunda. Yann\u0131\u015f.
\n-Baba, dedim ya, o \u00f6yk\u00fc senin ya\u015fam\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne kurulu fantezilerim. \u00d6yk\u00fcdeki insanlar ger\u00e7ek bile olsa, ger\u00e7ek isimlerini kullanamam ya. Ayr\u0131ca \u00f6yk\u00fc anlat\u0131c\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n almas\u0131 gereken bi ders vard\u0131. \u00d6yk\u00fcy\u00fc anlatan da ben de\u011filim. Anlat\u0131c\u0131, babas\u0131n\u0131n hayattan hi\u00e7 kam almad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ya\u015famaktan kendisi ne anl\u0131yorsa babas\u0131n\u0131n tatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131rken, babas\u0131 gizli a\u015fklar ya\u015farm\u0131\u015f me\u011ferse. Bunu anlamas\u0131 gerekiyor anlat\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n. O asl\u0131nda, bir \u015feyler bah\u015feder gibi tav\u0131rlar i\u00e7indeyken, zavall\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131, hayattan hi\u00e7 zevk almam\u0131\u015f sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 babas\u0131 me\u011ferse bankac\u0131n\u0131n kar\u0131s\u0131 Hicran ile fingirdermi\u015f. Okuyucu b\u00f6yle s\u00fcrpriz sonlar\u0131 sever. \u00d6yk\u00fc anlat\u0131c\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n tuzu kuru ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131 i\u00e7inde kendi do\u011frular\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015farken, o do\u011frular\u0131 ba\u015fkalar\u0131na ya\u015fatmak isterken afallamas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ok seviyorum. Hem \u00f6yk\u00fclerde ya\u015fam aynen aktar\u0131lmaz, aktar\u0131lamaz. \u00d6yle olabilse ortaya \u00e7\u0131kan \u00f6yk\u00fc olmaz. Senin \u00fcst\u00fcne ben, kafamda bir gizli a\u015fk \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc kurdum. Bor\u2019daki o tekd\u00fczeli\u011fe bir Hicran han\u0131m koyarak renklendirdim hayat\u0131n\u0131 i\u015fte, fena m\u0131 etmi\u015fim yani?
\n-\u0130yi itmi\u015fsin o\u011flum. Bi\u015fii didi\u011fim yok. Ben sevdim hik\u00e2yeni. Yan\u0131\u015f anama da, yan\u0131\u015flar var. Onu diyim Didim. Hem bi kere, bankac\u0131n\u0131n gar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131 hicran m\u0131yd\u0131 da? Bi kere, anandan gizli g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm bi gad\u0131n oldu\u011funu o \u00e7ocuk gafan\u0131nan nas\u0131l annad\u0131n bilmiyom amma o gad\u0131n bankac\u0131n\u0131n gar\u0131s\u0131 deel, Ziraat M\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc\u2019n\u00fcn gar\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131. Ad\u0131 da Hicran deldi\u2026Alo, alo\u2026alo o\u011flum\u2026telefona bi\u015fi oldu\u2026ses gitti\u2026alooo!?!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
EYVAH 1. Kasaban\u0131n en sevilen ayakkab\u0131c\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131 babam. Y\u0131llarca Ni\u011fde\u2019nin Bor kazas\u0131nda H\u00fck\u00fcmet Meydan\u0131\u2019ndaki d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131nda, Moda Kundura levhas\u0131 alt\u0131nda, ayakkab\u0131 yapm\u0131\u015f, tamir etmi\u015fti. Banka m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn kar\u0131s\u0131, o g\u00fczeller g\u00fczeli Hicran Han\u0131m, babam Nurettin Usta\u2019dan ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n iskarpinlerini giyemezdi. Sayg\u0131n bir zanaatk\u00e2rd\u0131 babam memleketinde. Ablam \u00fcniversite okuyaca\u011f\u0131m diye tutturunca, Ankara\u2019ya ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131k. Babam da, bir s\u00fcre, Demirlibah\u00e7e\u2019deki d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131nda s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fc … <\/p>\n